to be friendly. and I guess this tremendous difference in attitudes makes an almost shocking impact upon those who know both personalities. And naturally, "she" wins the popularity contest hands down.

The full-time TV and the transsexual seem to have many things in common. The one obvious difference lies of course in their attitude towards "the operation". . . the transsexual is obsessed by the thought of it, and I've known quite a few of them who actually do not even bother to dress as women before the change takes place. If it weren't for the insistence of Dr. Benjamin that they should try to live and dress as women BEFORE they attempt surgery, some of them would blithely ignore this vital factor. The full-time TV (and here I have very little data to draw conclusions from) I think is far more concerned with new horizons . . . he feels he has fully lived life in one role and now he wants to explore life following a different road, with a different attitude, different tools. He is not concerned with sex . . . as a matter of fact if the dormant "he" should be occasionally awakened by a female he might open a temporary parenthesis in "her" new life and indulge. The transsexual would be simply horrified at such thought. Sex, to the TS is unthinkable unless he can be the "female" in the sexual act. To the full-time TV the most important thing in life is "to live femininely" ... the operation plays no part in his life-pattern. Of course I may be accused of making statements that I cannot prove. After all, I cannot generalize from the 10 to 12 TS's I've met in my life, and neither can I generalize about full-time TV's, having known only 3 or 4. These are just ideas based mostly on my own feelings, experiences and observations.

To conclude: I feel that a full-time TV has simply reversed his original situation: and now he lives as a woman with a "boy-within". The differ- ence between the original "girl-within" and the present "boy-within" is that she was hungry for experience, for freedom, for a chance to be. The present boy-within has no such hunger. He has lived, and fully. He well knows the meaning of freedom and responsibility. Now he simply takes a back seat . . and with a wise smile on his face, he lets her do the driv- ing... and as a good backseat driver should, he keeps his mouth shut.

Love to all from a not-yet-full-time Susanna